Well another day down................The Major is flying all over Afghanistan so he is hard to stay in contact with.......one of the most frustrating things for me is the lack and inconsistancy of communication with my husband during this deployment..........I just miss being normal, I miss our life.........

The kids had a good day........we went shopping for Halloween costumes and out to Chinese with friends.......one of those good times when for a few moments I could focus on something else...........

I have been so exhausted and couldn't figure out why..........and then I came across a blog of a military mom and she stated........

"Its a constant 24 hour a day worry that wears on you, grates on you, weighs on you. It's physically and mentally exhausting. I don't always realize but sometimes I wonder why I'm tired some nights or why I can't sleep most nights.......It's the worry. The wear and tear of it. It's like the drone of a motor always on or the hum from fluorescent lights..always there...always present....even when you are doing other things or thinking other thoughts...it's THERE. The worry is always there. I know other moms and dads and wives and husbands and sisters and brothers will understand what I mean.".............

I know it sounds silly but I was so thankful for these words........because they mean I am not crazy.........and I am not alone........

Hug the ones you love..........tell them you love them often.............remember those who fight our freedom...................

Until they "ALL"come home..........